Soul to Squeeze

yezie:

and judged and shitty.

That’s why you have friends! Now come down from Rochester and chill!!!

It’s so hard being a Christian, seeing so many devoid of hope and of light, sometimes wanting to do the same. But knowing ultimately that I know who I am, who I belong to. There is struggle, always, in my body. My mind and my heart and it always troubles the soul…

Life is much easier being ignorant, ignorance is normally bliss but the fact of the matter is that there is far to much to be risking. I falter here and there, like all but one in all of humanity does, but in my core I know I can’t let go, I can’t stop walking on the path, I’ve tasted the eternal and I keep coming back to it. To be honest, there are times when I think, “why do I believe, why am I not an atheist, the facts are all on paper right there”, but my heart knows, I know that to deny God really would deny me. It’s a feeling unexplainable, extraordinary, but yet so often overlooked in my day to day life.

So I conclude my ramble, this moment of clarity brought upon by chaos. I guess sometimes chaos is provided to make way for clarity…